Physically near yet emotionally Distant

I've promised my self that I will walk away
Yet the very next day I couldn't look away
From those glistening eyes and pretty smile
The way I can sense your mood within a mile

When I hear you talk about your wobbly past
The reason behind your fear and mistrust
How I wished it was me instead of that damsel
Heedless desires command my mind's principle

You let me taste a part of your abridged psyche
Despite the prolonged heart aching occurances
My huge fear is to leave like those movie cliché
Though the taste of your lips is addicting to me

This romantic chase has taught me valuable things in life
Love does not go the way you hope it should be
Every beginning is a start of an ending like a knife
stabbing through my core when we finally say goodbye

Beneath the surface

He always believed he was sky blue
Maybe after all that is all so true
If it weren't for him, I'd be split into two
Finding the wings that'd get me to you
I always wondered why history repeat?
I always pondered why're you into me?
Is it worth it Sky Blue, even if Earth Knew?
The things we were planning that is new
Inevitable to those who must be aware
of what true love means to both of us

I sometimes believed you have always been the ocean
Surrounding Earth before the great water depression
The warmth you feel and the waves you produce
and the creatures you've been hiding beneath the surface

A story without an Ending

The love she fought for
Vanished in thin air
So smoothly silk to touch
a poison addicting to such
a prick without an anectode
that was how it began
Little endearments and chants
Tension was just a reason
to continue the faults of each other
What ever lesson must a maiden learn
For her grounds are merely stable
than a plethora of men giving pleasure

Thursday

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I sat above the Black and Blue table

To view the scenery

Outside the transparent cage,

I noticed the clouds away

Further; near the mountains

Moving towards it’s right

While I feel the battle deep inside

It is a sunny day after all

Everyone around me is joyful

But will not see the sorrows

Through the window of my soul

Again, it is a sunny day

In fact, it is a beautiful day

For someone to realise their mistakes

For someone to shed their tears

Over spilt milk

The day turns into weeks

Or even months

The next thing you know 

You’ve been away for a decade

Believing it was your burden that

kept the wounds wide open

The red ichor and the green leaves

Spoke to me and it said:

Life is an enormous adventurous place

With beautiful sceneries and painful souvenirs

Sky Blue

I do not own this photo.

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Looking in your valiant eyes

fluoresce, better than the stars

up above the cloak of galaxy

l lost in the view of intimacy

You may not be the basal

Yet, you remain a symbol

to my essence's fervency

the chains of our solitary

Compared to our devotion,

It is solely an imagery.

for a pair to persist one

The sky will always be blue

Thy eyes will surely stay green

My endearments are ever for you

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De Nigros Albus

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I have always wondered where my love goes

I have always pondered about whom are my foes

where the silver-lining of silver bullets lie

Is this the reflection of my current life?

The beginning of my virtuous state of mind,

have led me to my esse's extremity.

The harmless ones who show they are kind,

Perforated fresh wounds to my vivacity.

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Fifth Methanium

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The third stage in Shakespeare's play

One stage less than Tiger's

and a stage above Peony

We were initially acting the play while the audience watched us bloomed

A round of applause for the three of us

oh wait NO

It was actually for the two

Two names written on the trophy

so that means they have won

They say I never existed in the beginning

to fight for what I have done

They never wondered why I tapped the tips of my fingers

instead of discussing the unanswered questions

I never wanted to be the excess thing that was thrown

and I also do not want to be the one with the foul

They both never understood the reason I ache

The reason I wrote this or why am I like this?

The reason why I never confronted them

The reason I valued everything instead of rage

Simple words were said and actions were paused

How love is misunderstood by those who are lustful?

How I opaquely love while seeing the unattractive fact?

How am I here not revealing the unwitnessed to those who listen?

How repeatitions were always a thing?

How love can really be?

will always be something taken for granted

Like I was to Tiger

Oh Peony! my warmthful sowing seed

the mellow I recieved was actually

me stepping on broken glasses nakedly

Exothermic reaction gone wrong

I was being murdered repeatedly

apparently that was an art

which everyone adored

those clapping hands made it

excruciatingly beautiful

to these glistening eyes

drowning me in tears

unworthy of my devoted core

so I shall let go of my terrors now

and Carry on

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Fourth Methanium

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ㄒ卄乇 卂ㄩᗪ丨乇几匚乇

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They were the ornaments of the garden

plants and trees were rustling as the wind blows

A place where I met tiger and mostly watered

It was paradise until Peony arrived

The plants and trees started to dry

sucked the happiness out of Tiger

An alarm would have been fine

but to their sight I was the rising action of the plotline

in a blink of an eye

It was one of the famous deserts

nobody had doubts of the happenings

How am I dead while breathing gas in and out  simultaneously?

But there were three who cared all along

Cactus, Skull and Viper who buzzed

the melancholy of it

was I could not tell them in detail

only a part of it although it was deceitful

therefore I came to a conclusion of acting alone in misery

since everything was under the carpet so did I the dolour lass

every one remained restraint to latency

and I had no choice but to remain the protagonist of their story

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ᗪ乇卂ㄒ卄

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It was holistic to depth

the way the oxygen left

my bronchi absorbed emptiness

Like it was my last breath

I cannot believe they stole what's left inside

As if I was transparent

to those who passed by

at the edge of my view

two individuals misusing their taste buds

causing paralysis to those who once loved

then a flashback played while the grim reaper

reaped the sorrow out of my flesh

I recalled the feelings

Tiger made me sense

the greatest commencement

the prettiest chimera

and my pragmatic self

The times I was witnessing the unwitnessed

The scenery of the audience happily watching   

the play

The hundred hours I waited

just to get hit by a static bullet

How I wished it blinded I instead of inertia

Now I am no longer relevant nor requisite

I am just a lifeless body that was starting to rot internally

Plastic mannequin with a wide graceful smile externally

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The length of one's existence

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卩乇ㄖ几ㄚ

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One of the flower's that I cherished

Delicate and sophisticated

Young and serene

Her stem may be a little bit branched but

that was a part of the portrait

She told me she had not pricked anyone yet

with the pointed thorns surrounding her neck

A dried red liquid is found

although It was not a picture to be known

there were black petals that turned vivid colours for someone special to I

Tiger

I saw both of his hands filled with wounds week old

Could it be he attempted to pick this wonderful creation!

during that moment the flower transitioned to an atypical

releasing that familiar scent

making an indignation

which I realised how stupid I have been

For I knew she was always here while Tiger passes her path everyday

which made me ponder the reasons she might say

although I still ask until this day

Why Tiger out of all the Animal kingdom?

Was it because of his symmetrical face?

or Was it the abilities he does behind the closed curtains?

At first it was an electric shock numbing my veins

then a reality bullet swiftly came through

The gun was held by Peony and the trigger was pulled by Him

directed to my core

ending my virtuous mortal soul
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First Methanium

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You said you adored me

Even though the eyes you looked at

Isn't mine

And the clothing you wore lingered,

Of a divergent lady's scent

A territory I thought I owned has been

trespassed by my own kind

It became my one last for why should I stay

or wait three-hundred sixty five quarter days?

just to see your symmetrical face

and those shimmering faint eyes

and those lips which are fabricated to lie

multiple times

have I told you the reason why?

I abscond to leave in

the process of the door closing

because I know I will be your prey

Nostalgia of the chase, they say

The lady's scent is still loitering around your crust

Does she know your untold's?

Inside that flesh is a lion and not a tiger

Roaring for a certain lust

That temptation cannot nurture

I exculpated you

Although you chose to remain the same

You were once a brave tiger in my sight

and now you are just a Brute

entering a stigma of a different Peony

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His favourite